Star Wars Audition

Currently I am en route to Chicago to audition for Star Wars Episode VII. Man, I gotta say that I love this life I live. If I had one piece of advice to give to people, it would be to take advantage of every opportunity handed to you. And if there isn’t an opportunity, make your own. I promise, life is full of adventure, my life is testimony to that.

I found out about this audition a couple days ago and immediately cleared my schedule to get to it. Shout out to my coworkers for making this possible for me by covering my shifts. Side note: I work with the most amazing people. I love each and every one of them and it’s true what they say about Olive Garden, “When you’re here, you’re family.” I love those guys so stinkin’ much. Anyway.. Back on topic..

This audition. I know that there is literally no chance I’ll be cast, seeing as how they’re casting for one role and I’m sure 87 gajillion people are going to audition. But! I also know that it’s the experience and adventure that really matter. It’s the ability and courage to take advantage of what’s placed in front of you. And it’s the amazing friends who are just as crazy as you, who will drop anything and everything for you to road trip six hours in the middle of the week last minute to be there and hold your hand while you conquer the world. That’s who Caitie is to me. As she sits next to me right now singing at the top of her lungs, I’m not sure if she’ll ever know how grateful and blessed I am to have her in my life. She’s been there for all the best memories I’ve made in college. If I hadn’t met this girl, I wouldn’t have some of the best memories I’ve made in my life.

There’s a crazy world out there just waiting to be explored. So go out there and do it.

My host sister is better than your host sister.


So.. basically I have the absolute best sister in the entire world.

I was out this afternoon with Auburn for drinks and a snack, just walking around our favorite part of Lyon, taking in life in Vieux Lyon. Around the time we were heading home I got a text from my host sister asking if I was coming home for dinner. I told her yes and asked what time it’d be ready so that I would be home on time and wouldn’t make them wait on me. I didn’t think anything of this text.


I get home tonight and my host mom tells me that Mathilde made dinner tonight and that SHE MADE MEXICAN FOR ME. Yeah, that’s right. She made dinner especially for me because she knows how badly I’ve been dying for Mexican. It literally made my whole week. She is the absolute best and I adore her. Like seriously, I couldn’t have asked for a better family to live with here in France. They are wonderful and I love each and every one of them.

Obviously, dinner was the highlight of my day and yes, I did have TWO fajitas. I got to eat the last one because dinner was made special for me. If you can’t tell, I’m beaming right now. We even had chips! I’m so ecstatic.

Ok, now that I got all of that out of my system, I shall proceed to tell you what else I did today because the entirety of the day was pretty great.

Well, for lunch I had a burger on a bagel. Yeah, I know. Weird, right? But nooooo. It was amazing. I don’t understand why I don’t eat all my burgers on a bagel. It was genius. So, yeah, that was pretty cool.

After that we took a class excursion to the Lumière Museum, a museum dedicated to the brothers who created the cinema. As you can imagine, this was pretty exciting for me seeing as how I shall one day be an actor on the big screen.

Yeah, so I’m going to go ahead and say that today was a pretty awesome day.

I'm a part of the Lumière Museum.. obviously.

I’m a part of the Lumière Museum.. obviously.

Life Decisions, Passionate Goals

With classes winding down and my second year in college coming to a close, I’ve made some life decisions. At the start of my college career, I had decided to be an editor at a big time entertainment magazine somewhere in L.A. or New York. I still want to live in L.A., but now I don’t want anything to do with magazines. After deciding not to become a writer for a magazine, I switched my journalism emphasis from Magazine Journalism to Strategic Communication because I’d rather actually know the people in entertainment, as opposed to just writing about them. This all sounds pretty normal, right? People switch their majors all the time in their first years of college. However, my story has a twist; I want nothing to do with Journalism.

For the majority of my life, I’ve loved movies. They are my passion and my love. I want to act. Ever since I was a young child, I’ve wanted to act in movies. I remember being about six years old and telling my parents in the car one day while driving across a bridge that I wanted to be in Matilda or Annie, a movie like that. Fourteen years later, that yearning has done nothing but increase to an overwhelming part of my life. I find myself sitting in classes and letting my mind wonder to places filled with cameras, red carpets and flashing lights. I literally get butterflies when I picture my life in movies.

Now, many will probably think that I only want to be in movies to be famous or something else shallow like that. That’s not the case at all. No, my passion is much deeper than that. Throughout high school I was involved in every play that was put on during the four year duration I was there. Whether I had a starring role, was the director or just an usher, I made sure that I had some part and responsibility in everything that was done in our theatre. I loved it – everything about it; being on stage, becoming a completely different person than in my actual life. I love getting to know the character I play and morphing into someone that is the exact opposite of me. I can’t even really describe it, the feeling I get while performing for audience members. I live for it. That’s why even though I’m majoring in Journalism, I want nothing to do with it. I know that there’s no other career path for me than that which includes acting. Absolutely no other career.

Throughout the years, I’ve come to admire many actors in the world. These people have paved the way for me to become like them. Not in every way, but these that I admire have a lifestyle separate those of the Hollywood gossip scene. These actors are phenomenal and well-known, yet keep to themselves and don’t let the fame reach their heads like so many others in the world. This is what I strive to do when I move to California after graduation to pursue my acting career; I want to keep a clear head, but also maintain a steady life of acting. Johnny Depp is the number one actor that I admire in the world. He’s managed to pick roles that he saw fit, not just roles that would shoot him to fame. He handpicked everything and doesn’t flaunt his fame. In fact, he hides from it. Hayden Panettiere and Jennifer Lawrence also rank high in my standards because both of them also pick roles suited to them and manage to keep their heads out of the clouds as opposed to being greedy for money and attention. Lawrence chose multiple independent film roles before choosing to take on the role of Katniss Everdeen in The Hunger Games, and though Panettiere has grown up in the spotlight, she still wants to better the world through wildlife organizations. Stars like these are the ones I strive to be like.

I know it sounds silly and crazy but I’m a very determined person. I work hard at what I do and love. If I put my mind to it, I can accomplish anything. So, that’s why I know that I can do this and eventually make my living as an actor. The fame isn’t for me, I want to keep my normal life and privacy, which is why I’m not doing this for the fame itself. I’m doing this because I have a genuine love for the art of acting and strive to make my entire life out of it. So, after graduation in 2014, I’ll be moving to California to live out my dream. Wish me luck.

As Olive Madison, lead in the female version of "The Odd Couple," at Lawson High School, Lawson, Mo. Fall 2009