One week. That’s it.
One week from now I’ll be on a plane hating life because I’m no longer in France. I can’t even describe how I feel when I start to think about leaving this place. I know I’ve missed home at times throughout this trip but now I can’t even imagine leaving. I constantly tell my Momma not to make me come home because I just want to live here for the rest of my life. This has by far been the most amazing experience of my life and I’ve made so many ridiculously incredible memories that I’ll carry with me for the rest of my life. God has truly blessed me and I couldn’t be happier. Except for the fact that I have to go home…in one week. I really can’t believe it, but I know that one day soon I’ll be back.
I have so many new best friends now that I can’t imagine my life without and can’t begin to tell them how much I love them. My French family is a part of my life now too and I don’t want to ever leave them and I’m dreading saying goodbye.
This adventure has reinforced my confidence in my decision to move out to L.A. next summer because I know that if I can move halfway across the world to a completely different country with a foreign language, then I can definitely move halfway across the country with no problem. I have so many dreams to accomplish in my life and I’m blessed to be able to say that I’ve already begun to conquer them.
God is good.
Two weeks. And I’m craving so many things from home. Soooo many things. Like different kinds of food. I miss variety.. But anyway, I also miss my Momma. Yup, like lots. And Dad.. and brother.. and Grandma.. and Grandpa.. and the baby girls.. so, it only took two weeks before I got down about being away. But that’s ok! Because it just takes about five seconds and I realize where I am again and all is well with the world. I’m in “France ya’ll!” (Lilly voice from Bridesmaids.)
There’s my first time admitting that I’m just the teeny tiniest bit homesick. But don’t expect that often. After all.. I’M IN FRANCE.
I’m living out one of the biggest dreams I’ve ever had in my life.
I was searching for a song to perfectly embody what chasing this dream is like and I realized that no other song could express this better than “Dreams” by Van Halen. I remember seeing this video for the first time with my Daddy, so it’s even more perfect. I get my musical tastes from him. I guess he’s got pretty good taste. Mmm, love me some Van Halen.
Happy thoughts of a humbled girl.
Well, I finally have a moment to myself to relax and think about things. Since summer began, I’ve been working full-time, doing a part-time internship and trying to spend as much time as possible with my family and friends. So far, all is successful; got my first paycheck today, I’m loving my internship and I’m currently sitting with my entire family watching Wall-E.. So, I’d say I’ve got it all covered. Life is good.
Recently, I’ve been so incredibly happy. It’s ridiculous. I can’t wipe the smile off my face and I love infecting those around me with happiness. It’s like nothing can get me down and I love it. Everything in my life is coming together and I’m enjoying every second. I’m preparing for my future in a way I’ve never done before by adding another major – theatre, which is my absolute passion that gives me so much joy and excitement when I’m involved in it, I’m always happy and trying to help those around me – I’m no longer judgmental or critical of those around me like so many girls in this world tend to be (and how I was earlier in life, sad to say) and I’m so much looking forward to what God has in store for me. Seriously, I get tingly and butterflies when I think about what He has planned for my life and what path He has laid before me. I want to live my life for Him to those around me and I hope that I positively impact those around me, showing them the amazing grace and love that He has for them. Gah, I’m just so happy.
My life is amazing right now. I’m moving toward my future and can’t wait to live my life for the Lord and expand on what He has planned for me. After I graduate from Mizzou, I plan to move out to L.A. to pursue my dream of becoming an actor. This isn’t just a dream, it’s a passion and life goal that I WILL accomplish. Nothing less is acceptable. God has so many amazing plans for me and I’m ready to get them started.
“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” Jeremiah 29:11